So it must be very obvious I've been in an entirely better mood, with everything. I guess the reason is fairly obvious too, unless you're a hermit... therefor I will just say it; I have met the most amazing person ever. She found me, but the more we talk it's like a constant high, like I've never reached before. She (Angeleah) and myself have been talking everyday and have not made a miss for trying to spend time together. I've never been in the presence of someone who could make me feel this way before. She makes my heart skip a beat, and keeps me on my toes with her swift comebacks; Every time we have spent time with one-another we've had more than enough fun, and it always get better. One thing I am so glad that is happening, is that before we take this any further, she wants me to pay to my legal obligations. Nobody has ever made it a big deal, when in reality it should it have been. This has turned out to be one of the most amazing times in my life, and she is the most amazing person to ever enter my life.
I cannot say that I'm not starting to feel anything for her, because I honestly am. Maybe more, but nothing that I shall post on here, not right now. Since we have started talking,I have gained all inspiration to do what I used to do, art. Being that my ex killed all my inspiration, she has since given it back and though I haven't done much with it because of my work obligations, I plan to begin some time soon! I'm just so amazed by how she has changed my entire outlook about being happy. I was happy, but now I am more so. There's nobody that could ever replace her, or come in between us and I'm sure of it. I'm done with having drama in my life, and I just think she should know that I am beginning to have stronger and stronger feelings for her.
As far as life is concerned:
So to speak about work is to speak about something that has went from being awesome, to getting better. Thought my factors changed and I went from around 40% -- I am now at 26% from my monthly budget going up, but I don't mind... I missed mid-month but I have been going harder and I am going to get my money now. I refuse to let myself slip.
There may be more time in the day than I act like there is, but as far as being innocent in the end of the day I am still guilty for being a man, and wanting to make something of myself, and have a family. I want to do good for people I care about, and for myself.
This post is kinda short for me, but I do have some things I need to do. I will try to update more this week. I need to begin working on it more.
-Adam B.
